I often talk about ‘the unknown’ with workshop participants and clients. As humans, we often paint a picture of the ‘unknown’ to be a terrible, horrible place. And it will be, if that is what you believe your ‘unknown’ to be. It will also be an incredible and amazing place, way better than the place you are right now, if you just believe it and focus upon it. You know…that thing called a self-fulfilling prophecy!
Well, I am grappling with my own ‘unknown.’ While I know that I will eventually move to Denver, I truthfully don’t know when. It all hangs in the balance of finding new tenants for my townhome rental in Libertyville. Since I am not independently wealthy and cannot afford a mortgage in Chicago and rent in Denver, the reality is that I cannot afford to move to Denver until I get new tenants.
But wait! There’s more! Back in July, I made the decision to postpone my move to Denver in order to help my dad move to a more manageable property and to hold an estate sale to empty his house so that the house can be put up for sale. Well, about a week after I made that decision, my dad decided that he was not moving, and he did not want to hold an estate sale. In essence, he had no clue what he wanted. And, in essence, I had no clue what to do with myself for the next month.
With nothing scheduled for August, because I was supposed to be settling into an apartment in Denver or I was supposed to be preparing for an estate sale and moving my father to a new home, I was forced to operate in limbo for more than a month. All of my things were packed away. I had been living with only the essentials, since I had fully intended to move. It is like perpetually waiting for some big event to happen that never comes.
The new plan is to definitely head to Denver if I get new tenants by October 1st. If not, I will remain in Chicago until May. With the rental market as tight as it is in Denver, and the optimal window for finding an apartment gone (May – August), it just made more sense to stay until the timing was optimal. Besides, I don’t really want to move furniture in the middle of a potential snow storm!
So, here I am, in September, in limbo, unable to really plan anything. I could plan a bunch of in-person workshops but it would definitely go against my value of integrity if I had to cancel on people who were counting on me to be there. While I have plenty of online workshops scheduled for September and October, my focus, during the month of August, had been on writing a new business plan, setting new goals, and working on a media kit and public relations. The fruits of that labor won’t be seen until I am further down the road, but I have comfort in knowing that I did not waste the gift of time that I had been given. After all, I had also used that time to connect with people I had not seen in a long time, which helped me to move forward through the hurdles I was constantly jumping.
What about you? What have been your challenges this year? What are you currently struggling with?
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